conviction.

I am blessed.

Sometimes I forget.

But I am so so so very blessed.

This month I have forgotten.

This is not going to kill me.

God has always been faithful.

He has never left me.

I am not alone.

The plan is uncertain.

The road looks dark and scary.

But He is bigger than that.

So much bigger.

I do not know what comes next.

But I am ready.

More than that, I am blessed.

Unbelievably blessed.

I must learn how to make this...

self-enlightenment

Things I have discovered since being unemployed:

- Game shows stress me out
- Without any motivation to go somewhere, I don't
- There is nothing good on TV, especially during the daytime
- My neighbors are noisy
- I hate being bored, I will find almost anything to do (short of illegal activities) to prevent it
- I have a whole duffel bag full of approx. 35 t-shirts that I didn't unpack that I completely forgot existed in the bottom of my closet... I haven't even missed them
- Facebook is a soul and time sucking invention
- There are lots of jobs available in Austin and I am either over or under qualified for all of them
- I have a lot of learning/growing left to do
- I have really good friends, I don't deserve them

on repeat.

How deep the Father's love for us
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
And make a wretch His treasure
How great the pain of searing loss
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the Chosen One
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the man upon the cross
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed, I hear my mocking voice
Call out among the scoffers
It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection
Why should I gain from His reward
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

Why should I gain from His reward
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

Penelope Lives!

Well much to my surprise I came home to find my little herb garden sprouting some herbs. I am so proud of her :) Here is a photo of her progress.... The dill and basil and showing, no sign of the chives yet:
In other news... here is the brief run down on how life is going:

- I still don't have a job, yes I am discouraged and frustrated.
- Every conversation I have had recently has been about the job situation. I know it's kind of what's going on with me right now but seriously isn't there anything else to discuss?
- The bachelorette party for Rach this weekend was super fun, I can't wait for the wedding
- I have really been missing my Belton friends this week, they are all at "camp" and I wish I was there .
- Robyn and Angie are graduating this weekend. That is nuts. I am so excited!
- Todd graduates at the end of May, even crazier!
- Life is turning out to be nothing like I expected... what an adventure this is turning out to be...