how He loves us...

AT&T had us go train this morning at 7:30 am. Downtown. For 2 hours. After which we worked until 7 pm. Ri-dic-u-lous. Ok, well that is enough whining from me.

Sarah is coming tomorrow. Yippeeee! I get so excited when someone gets to come visit! Then I get to go home for the first time since January for Easter!

As this week heads closer to a time of remembrance I am overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by a savior that would endure immeasurable suffering, die a terrible death for a messed up sinner like me, like us. My heart is heavy with this knowledge. I am so ungrateful sometimes, so forgetful. In this time of reflection and brokenness I find myself speechless.

How He Loves - David Crowder

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves.


We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
And Heaven meets earth like an unforseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…

a few randoms

- I had a terrible day at work. I think AT&T is stealing all my joy.

- Got Shelly's prayer card today! I am so so excited for her!

- All these cheating men (Tiger, Jesse James etc) along with all the cheating stories I have heard about normal people make me sad. I just feel so hopeless with that information.

- Trying to figure out this depression managing thing. Its not easy but I am grateful for people with open minds and good ideas.

- I really need to clean my apartment, badly.

- I ordered books through Amazon. Bad move. Now I know how easy it is.

- Chocolate Lave Crunch Cakes from Domino's are SO good. Try one. Unless you hate chocolate.

- I miss you all. A lot.

a brief vacation.

I just got back from San Antonio where I met up with my parents. They wanted to take me out to celebrate graduating college. In some ways college feels a thousand years in the past and in some it feels like I graduated 10 minutes ago. Its bizarre really...

Pictured below is The Tower of the America's. It is where my parents got engaged and I have always wanted to eat there. The restaurant is at the top of that thing. It was nuts.



Anyway, it was so good to relax and get away. Really really good. It was almost a healing time. So strange that I see it that way. I am so grateful for my parents, so proud to be there daughter. I think that it is safe to say that my perspective has changed. Adulthood is weird.

a peek into the future...

I dunno when or where it will be or who I will be dancing with but we will be dancing to this at my wedding... Get pumped. Plus, this song just puts me in a good mood. Bet it will do the same for you, even if you aren't a fan of country :)

Ugh.

I cannot wait to get another job.
I can't do this much longer.
I thought I could just hang in there and suck it up.
But ya know what, I can't
I would rather live at home than do this anymore.
And that is saying something.
New. Job. Now.

sex, plungers, and womanhood.

Today I had to go to Home Depot to buy my first plunger. To which my father said: "You are officially a woman". As if he had doubted my womanhood before. I have no idea what this statement meant but I am stoked to offcially be a woman...

After leaving Home Depot I got into my car, plunger by my side, and looked forward. Why oh why did I do such a thing?! I realize that is the "normal" thing to do but it is a moment I now regret. Heartily. In the green four door sedan in front of me two young individuals were canoodling in front of me. And by "canoodling" I really mean "having sex". Naked Naked sex. Sick. My plunger and I will be scarred forever.

I am not sure what about Home Depot these young lovers found so arousing, but I wish they had found it to be something... else. Gross Gross Gross. Be glad you missed it. I'm sure you are.

Anyway, I would like to know why Target does not carry plungers. I am just saying, if they had plungers I would still be able to see. But my plunger, Bill and I wouldn't be such good friends. So... yeah. Bye now.

Silly

Is it ridiculous that I am proud of myself when I hit "play" at exactly the right second on my DVR?

You don't have to answer that... I already know I am.

Good night.

Comfort

"Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe"

- Anna Nalick "Breathe"

"To the one who's dreams are falling all apart
And all you're left with is a tired and broken heart
I can tell by your eyes you think your on your own
but you're not all alone.
You will be safe in His arms
You will be safe in His arms
'Cause the hands that hold the world are holding your heart
This is the promise He made
He will be with You always
When everything is falling apart
You will be safe in His arms"

"Safe" - Phil Wickham

“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.”

– Maya Angelou