some random stuff.

Well, its about time for an actual update post...

- My grandfather is much better, especially since he is now at home instead of in a hospital. Thanks to those of you who kept us in your thoughts and prayers.
- I wish I could blog about work. The things that occur would crack you guys up.
- I have narrowed down my possible future to 4 general things. They will all require a lot of work and time... Therefore, I still have a lot to think about.
- Possible moving further into Austin in December. Into a house, with roommates. So exciting and scary. BUT I will have to decrease my furniture significantly.... not great. But, not bad.
- I am taking on a second job-like thing as a maid/wedding coordinator/assistant person for a friend. I think it's going to be fun and different and maybe challenging.
- I really really miss my Beltonians. And by that, I mean the Salado-ian and Miamian as well.
- I can't wait for fall/winter. My favorite seasons of the year :)

rest

Jesus is good. Even when I am terrible at life. He is good. So faithful, endlessly loving and graceful beyond my imagination. I don't understand why things have panned out this way. I have no idea what the next few months hold. But, He does. That has to be enough for now.

"The LORD is gracious and compassionate,

slow to anger and rich in love.
The LORD is good to all;

He has compassion on all he has made.
All you have made will praise you, O LORD;

Your saints will extol you.
They will tell of the glory of your kingdom

and speak of your might,
so that all men may know of your mighty acts

and the glorious splendor of your kingdom.
Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom,

and your dominion endures through all generations.

The LORD is faithful to all his promises

and loving toward all he has made.
The LORD upholds all those who fall

and lifts up all who are bowed down."

Psalm 145:8-14

what a freakin' week.

- 12 meals and 72+ hours in the hospital
- 25 hours at work
- My family staying in my apartment
- 1 sick grandfather
- 1 stessed out grandmother
- 1 brother having a rough go at it

And it's only Friday. Whoa buddy.

All of that to say, I am doing great. I am exhausted, and emotional but good. The surgery went better than we could have imagined and he will have a new pace-maker placed Monday. Hopefully, the hospital fiasco will be over soon after that.

I have also been quite confused by the mass of emotions around not being in school and RA stuff this semester. Its totally weird. I should probably process throught that but I think I'll be really healthy and wait :)

I hope that for those of you starting school, it will be fantastic. And for those of you who are not and are excited about it, congrats. And for those who are confused, join the club.

Love Love.

Fix you.

This dance from SYTYCD was about wanting to help someone you love in the midst of sickness... This struck a chord with me. I think on some level we have someone we wish we could fix. I hope you like it as much as I do.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvGceaFTne8&feature=related

sappy

So, RA training is starting soon. I know that because I have seen the tweets, and facebook status stuff talking about moving back. And, its weird. I never thought I would really miss this time of year. The getting ready for classes, moving, unpacking, no sleep, Hardy food... But the truth is, in a lot of ways I do miss it. I even miss RA Training. Well... parts of it. I don't miss inventories, or having bunk beds dropped on me, or CPR with Nurse Debbie and her tampon nose-bleed stoppers... But I miss the comraderie. I miss "camp". I miss my people.

I love Austin, more than is probably natural for "person to city" love. But, people I miss you. I even miss that weird Burt smell. I know, I know, this is a ridiculous post. But, if you read this blog ever, you know I am overly-emotional and frequently far too sentimental. So here I am, proving to you that I am who you know me to be.

Have fun peeps. I miss you, and I will praying for you as the ladies move in! Love love.

a gentle reminder.

Life is a funny thing. An unpredictable, messy, lovely thing. This last month has felt a whirlwind of strange and overwhelming emotions. But this is a discussion for another day.

Tonight, this old school hymn's chorus just keeps repeating over and over in my head:

"Turn your eyes upon Jesus,

Look full in His wonderful face.

And the things of Earth will grow strangely dim,

In the light of His glory and grace."

faith.

I hate stress. Anxiousness is my least favorite emotion of all of the emotions. Ugh. More than all other topics, I despise worrying about money. I realize very clearly that I am blessed. I am more fortunate than most of the world. But sometimes, I just can't help feeling the tension of the bills coming in.

I wish I were more like some of my friends that trust that things like money will be taken care of. I wish I had faith like that. The truth is, I don't. Ladies and gents, I don't need more money... I need more faith. I feel like I am not alone in these fears. Not everyone's worry is monetarily related, but we've all got something. I hope tonight finds you free of anxiety, but I find solace in a well known and often quoted scripture. How many times have I read this and not really read it?

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

- Matthew 6:25-34