Stress is a funny thing... It affects people so differently. I can't really be objective as to what my normal reaction is but I can say that the pressure of graduating is definitely taking it's toll.
I feel like one group of people in my life are pushing me towards corporate America. They want me to make enough money, have enough stuff and work somewhere that I can move up in the ranks quickly. On the other hand, I have a group that wants me to see the wide and vast amount of options that I have. They want me to join the Samaritan's Purse or do mission work, or do non-profit work or open my own business...
The truth of the matter is as much as I appreciate the advice, I have completely lost what I actually want or for that matter what God wants. I have applied for what seems like gazillion jobs, but I feel so so so lost. Is it ok to get a transition job? Am I settling by taking a "normal job"? What kind of job do I want? Can I afford to be picky with the economy as it is? How many people can I disappoint in one day?
Yes, I am aware that I shouldn't care, and that I should do what God has called me to etc...
I am officially tired of talking about this...
welcome to the end of senior year. you have officially reached.
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